Birthday wish for Cynthia, (failed to upload yesterday)
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Today is another rainy day. This situation really make myself relate Kuching this small city to Forks city in U.S.A. as stated in Twilight novel-rain everyday;cloudy throughout the year. Then, is there any Edward Cullen here and Bella Swan here? Haha, just kidding. Well, it's true that I like rains, but it's not that good if this situation goes on. Clothes are hard to dry, and things are more likely to grow fungi. I really hope this situation will stop very soon.
I still trying my best to find my english course institution. So, I went to Dixmart which is located at Stutong area this morning, a rainy morning.
It's dry inside the office, of course (lame?). My parents and I asked the teachers many questions in ENGLISH (ooh, why do i capitalise it? because I seldom speak English) And the teacher, she is kind. I heard that she is from New Zealand (not sure about this?). Well, we have a long chat. Then, she tested me, when I was totally unprepared for anything. She asked me to translate chinese to english. She gave me a few sentences, then hid the english parts, showing the chinese parts, asking me to translate those chinese to english. I was super nervous. In fact, it's very apparently that I was very very nervous because I can feel that my english was 'trembling'. I totaly lost my confident. So, that's why I make mistake even for easy grammar mistake that shouldn't made by a Form 5 student. Anyway, I kinda pass the minor test. Well, I tried to control myself to stay calm so at last I didn't really make big mistakes. The teacher told me that I have reached the xx level(I don't really remember the name, if not mistaken, it's called Communicator stage, but if so, then this a weird name), that's the highest level I could see. The teacher then showed me the textbook. Since I'm uncertain for my future undertaking, so we can't take the english course for a year(which is the complete course). The most that teacher can reach in three months time is just until topic 4 of that textbook. However, I can understand the text, which means that it won't help much. Anyway, I still really thanks a lot to the teacher. We consulted her so many things, but she didn't get any consultation fee from us! However, to me the main thing I need is conversation, oral skill. See, I become nervous to speak english. Who can introduce me the place to go so that I can improve my english? Does television programmes help? I'm very concerned about this. English is still very important to me.
Afternoon, we went to B.D.C. area. I straightaway went to Popular bookstore. I finally bought my Reader's Digest. Here, I found one story very interesting. I would like to share it with all of you.
TITLE : THE OTHER SIDE OF THE COIN
AUTHOR: CATHY WATSON
I WAS DOING A BIG clean-up in the early part of last year and my kids were helping. As he rummaged through boxes and bags, one of my sons came across a knotted handkerchief with an old dark brown coin nestled inside. "Mum, can I have this? Can I play with this in my cash register?" he asked. I took one look and was immediately transported to another time. "You can play with all your coins, but not this one," I said slowly. "This one's special. I will never again see the woman who gave this to me." I fingered the coin gently. "This coin is worth much more than its monetary value."
My son looked at me strangely and I explained. In 1991, I had spent five months in a bleak AFrican country, Niger, ravaged by sandstorms and blistering heat. There were many things I found difficult about this place-the climate and beggars were my biggest and most constant gripes. Street urchins would continually thrust their hands into your face, shouting "Cadeau! Cadeau!" [gift] in French, the former colonial tongue.
After I'd finished my nursing stint there, a friend and I headed for neighbouring Burkina Faso to work in a health clinic. "It's much greener in Burkina. Even the Coke tastes better," the locals assured us.
Arriving by taxi at our destination in Burkina, we began to unload. I had a large backpack and a smaller daypack. With my daypack wedged between my legs, I reached for my larger piece of luggage. Out of the darkness, a motorbike with two men approached slowly. Without warning, one of the men grabbed my daypack as the motorbike swept close by. Within seconds, the two were out of sight, swallowed up by the night.
The bag had my passport, money, traveller's cheques, camera, an airline ticket and other paraphernalia precious to me. I was in deep trouble. And the nearest Australian consulate was in Ethiopia.
In the weeks that followed, I zealously guarded the rest of my valuables and regarded all locals with suspicion. I endured interrogations by the authorities with thinly veiled frustration. All I wanted was to leave this hellhole.
Then, walking through Burkina's streets one day, I was accosted by an old woman who thrust her hand in my face. "Cadeau! Cadeau!" she cried.
I's had enough. I was sick and tired of the country: its poverty and corruption, its thieves, its inefficiency, the heat, the dust and its time-wasting officials. I told her firmly in French, "I have no 'cadeau'. I have no money. A thief stole all my money two weeks ago and now I can't get out of your country. I cannot give you anything."
The beggar woman listened attentively and pondered my words. Then her face crumpled into a toothless grin as she reached into the folds of her dress.
"Then I will give you a cadeau," she announced. Kindly, she placed an old, dark brown coin in my palm. I looked at it in shock. It was a minuscule amount of money - but for this woman, the coin represented a meal. In that moment, I felt the shame of affluence and the humility of charity. She had given me a gift disproportionate to anything that I ever donated. In the midst of her poverty, she was able to give me something priceless.
I saw then the unexpected beauty of the people of Burkina Faso - and appreciated profoundly the quiet dignity of the poor.
Humbled by the old woman's gift, I hope never to part with the coin she gave me. With one small token, she turned my perceptions upside down.
Things to be shared today~
Another great song presented by 東方神起 - - BOLERO
BOLERO - TOHOSHINKI
東方神起 - Bolero
作詞∶ラムジ
作曲∶鈴木大輔/冨田惠一
闇に浮かぶ月のステージに
踊る君の夢見たんだ
深い深い胸の傷を
ひとつひとつ背負わないで
誰も君を責めやしない
君は君でいればいいさ
聴かせて 愛しく儚く
つま先で奏でるBolero
舞い上がれ 君の哀しみも
癒される場所 見つけるさ
暗い部屋の中…
満たされぬ想い窓から溢れ 夢が募る
月明かりの下…
がむしゃらに希望のリズムを刻む 夢が募る
君が君らしいのは 自由に羽ばたくから
誰も知る事のない 答え探して
聴かせて 愛しく儚く
つま先で奏でるBolero
舞い上がれ 君の哀しみも
癒される場所 見つけるさ
Oh, Let you dance away.
Don't you know? I stand by your side.
Yeah, Fly away... Fly to the top.
Fly forever, yeah.
いつまでも 君を照らし続けるよ
見守るよ 君と愛すべき未来を
どこにいても 僕は願い続けるよ
守るから ah
聴かせて (聴かせて) 眩しく切なく (狂おしく)
情熱で煌めくBolero (歓喜の歌を)
君は決してひとりじゃないから
命の限り舞い上がれ
君の居場所はここにある
LYRICS
01. Bolero
credits to: rey ichigo
Yamini ukau futsuki no suteji ni
Otoruki ii oyumeni tanda
Fukai fukai mune no kisu wo
Hitotsu hitotsu sewonawonaide
daremo kimi wo semeyashinai
kimi wa kimi de ireba ii sa
kikasete
Itoshi kuhaka naku tsowarakide kana deru Bolero
maia kare
kimi no kana shimi wo iyareru basyo-i tsukerusa
mitasareru omoi atokara afure yume katsuneru
Tsukiakari wo shita
Kamusharani kibo wo no ritsumo wo kitsamo
kimi kakimirasii no wajiyu-u ni habataru kara
Daremo shirukoto no nai kottae shagashide.
Kikasede
Itushiru hakanatsu tsumasaki dekana de Bolero
Maia kare
kimi no kana simimoi yasareru pasyo mitsukeru sa
kikasete
Mabushiru setsuna rutso wo netsu dekirame Bolero
Imakotshita
Hitorijanai kara
i no jino kakiri maa kahae
kimi wo i basho wa koko ni aru
TRANSLATION
credits to:cutecrazyness@videouncovered
[Junsu]
the floating darkness of the month when you saw your dream to dance on stage
[Yoochun]
a deep, deep wound
[Yunho]
being alone has no end
[Yoochun + Yunho]
nobody to bother you, you are good, you are good at what you do
{CHORUS}
[Jaejoong]
tell me/sing for me, before leaving, spread your wings and play the bolero
[Changmin]
to soar, find a place where your sadness will be healed
[Yoochun]
inside a dark room,
[Jaejoong]
a window of sentiments is overflowing
[Yunho]
under the moonlight,
[Changmin]
the dream of becoming stronger is a possibility as you engrave your rhythm’s aspiration
dream to become stronger
[Junsu]
you fly freely because you flap your wings
Anyone knows not to look for the answers (or: nobody knows where to search for the answers)
{CHORUS}
[Jaejoong + Changmin]
tell me/sing for me, before leaving, spread your wings and play the bolero
to soar, find a place where your sadness will be healed
Oh~
Let you dance away
Don’t you worry/know
I’ll stand by your side
Ah~
Fly away, Fly away, Fly away, Fly to the top
Fly forever
Yeah, yeah, yeah~
[Junsu]
eternally,
[Yunho]
you continue to shine
[Junsu]
watching over attentively
[Changmin]
for your admired future
[Jaejoong]
where to go
[Yoochun]
as i continue to hope
[Jaejoong]
to protect [you]
{CHORUS2}
[THSK]
sing for me, in radiance, misery, with passion and sparkle in bolero
you are not facing these alone
soar high until the end/last of life
[Jaejoong]
[because] this place is what you have
MUSIC VIDEO
Thursday, February 5, 2009
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
Fall sick yesterday
Ahhhh.... I didn't write my blog yesterday! Is this a big matter? Kind of... to me.
Okay.. Let's recall what had happened yesterday.
Third of February..
Morning, I went to Sunway College for the English programme. Well, when I reached there, I saw many students standing at the counter. I have no idea what are they doing (???). I just sat on the chair and wait for my turn. Then, my dad who came with me, asked a miss about the English programme which the college offered. Out of my surprise, the miss who was chosen to handle us didn't know most of the things. So, she kept asking her colleague. At last I knew the reason why she kept asking her colleague, she is just an assistant. Maybe she is a rookie? Just my guest. She is very friendly. At least she did her best, huh? Okay, she is kinda sociable and good to their 'future' customers. And, apparently they are looking for students to join their account course. However, I'm not looking for accounting, so I had rejected the offer. I have no idea whether Sunway College is the best choice for me to have my English course? I really have no idea. For those who are interested to join Sunway College for the Practical English Programme (PEP), I will show you some special features offered by the college :
Features:
-Placement tests determine which level you go into, there's no need to start from the beginning.
-Each level is made up of modules, each modules lasts for three months.
-Not only does this programme improve your overall English proficiency but modules and levels lead to optional external qualifications offered from Cambridge and City & Guides.
-Classes are taught by experienced lecturers, with up to date materials.
-The academic nature of the course will be of especial benefit to students wishing to do better their school exam.
The class starts at 2 of March. Day will be either Monday/Wednesday or Tuesday/Thursday, two choices. Choices for time are part time: 7:00pm till 9:00pm
and full time 9am till 12 pm. Duration is 3 months per module. Levels are classefied as elementary, intermediate and advance.
Anyway, I will try my best to score my best in their placement test, so, wish me luck!
Night time, I watched Peter Pan. The young star who acted as Wendy has very big teeth, haha, but beautiful! Frankly, her teeth is beautiful. Peter Pan looks a bit childish, but who cares? Haha, he supossed to be look childish, didn't he? Not bad.. Not bad..
But, how unfortunate, I dreamt bad dreams again. I dreamt about the SPM or exam things again... *sigh*
Today:
I felt so unhappy today! I was blamed!! I really really very angry for that! I have done my part, and then now they blamed me for not doing that?? Unfair!! So I lose my mood to observe or see anything around me.I did add maths all the morning, and I did not play with my cat. I was really really very angry. Rain..still rain. Today rain whole~day. Stopped only at evening time. I went to Samfah Stationary Shop today. I never know my parents knew such a big boss! I bought nothing there. But, I found out one thing--recently, I listened "HEART.BEAT" by LeeHom very often. It's a nice song. Heehee. Here, I would like to share the lyrics with you ^_^
王力宏 - 心跳
Wang Lee Hom - Xin Tiao
作词 : 王力宏 易家扬 作曲 : 王力宏
想跟我吵架 我没那么无聊
不懂得道歉 我没那么聪明
好想要回到我们的原点
you want to start a quarrel, but i'm not so free
don't know how to apologise, i'm not that smart
i'd like to return to our beginning
你又在哭泣 我给不了安慰
我又在摇头 有那么点后悔
爱情的发展已难以回头 却无法往前走
you're crying again, i can't provide comfort
i'm shaking my head again, just a little regretful
how love had developed there is no turning back, yet it can't go on either
但身不由己出现在胸口
两颗心能塞几个问号
爱让我们流多少眼泪
but i couldn't stop it from appearing on my chest
how many questions can be stuffed into two hearts
how many tears had love made us shed
你的眼神充满美丽 带走我的心跳
你的温柔如此靠近 带走我的心跳
逆转时光到一开始 能不能给一秒
等着哪一天你也想起
那悬在记忆中的美好
your eyes are filled with beauty, it takes my heartbeat away
your gentleness is so close, it takes my heartbeat away
turning back time to the beginning, could i have one second
waiting for the day when you too remember
the happiness existing in our memories
想跟我吵架 我没那么无聊
不懂得道歉 我没那么聪明
好想要回到我们的原点
you want to start a quarrel, but i'm not so free
don't know how to apologise, i'm not that smart
i'd like to return to our beginning
但身不由己出现在胸口
两颗心能塞几个问号
爱让我们流多少眼泪
but i couldn't stop it from appearing on my chest
how many questions can be stuffed into two hearts
how many tears had love made us shed
你的眼神充满美丽 带走我的心跳
你的温柔如此靠近 带走我的心跳
逆转时光到一开始 能不能给一秒
等着哪一天你也想起
那悬在记忆中的美好
your eyes are filled with beauty, it takes my heartbeat away
your gentleness is so close, it takes my heartbeat away
turning back time to the beginning, could i have one second
waiting for the day when you too remember
the happiness existing in our memories
你的眼神充满美丽 带走我的心跳
你的温柔如此靠近 带走我的心跳
逆转时光到一开始 能不能给一秒
等着哪一天你也想起
那悬在记忆中的美好
your eyes are filled with beauty, it takes my heartbeat away
your gentleness is so close, it takes my heartbeat away
turning back time to the beginning, could i have one second
waiting for the day when you too remember
the happiness existing in our memories
王力宏 - 心跳 Music Video
I forgot to wish Cynthia happy birthday, so
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST CYNTHIA~ (2/2/09)
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Okay.. Let's recall what had happened yesterday.
Third of February..
Morning, I went to Sunway College for the English programme. Well, when I reached there, I saw many students standing at the counter. I have no idea what are they doing (???). I just sat on the chair and wait for my turn. Then, my dad who came with me, asked a miss about the English programme which the college offered. Out of my surprise, the miss who was chosen to handle us didn't know most of the things. So, she kept asking her colleague. At last I knew the reason why she kept asking her colleague, she is just an assistant. Maybe she is a rookie? Just my guest. She is very friendly. At least she did her best, huh? Okay, she is kinda sociable and good to their 'future' customers. And, apparently they are looking for students to join their account course. However, I'm not looking for accounting, so I had rejected the offer. I have no idea whether Sunway College is the best choice for me to have my English course? I really have no idea. For those who are interested to join Sunway College for the Practical English Programme (PEP), I will show you some special features offered by the college :
Features:
-Placement tests determine which level you go into, there's no need to start from the beginning.
-Each level is made up of modules, each modules lasts for three months.
-Not only does this programme improve your overall English proficiency but modules and levels lead to optional external qualifications offered from Cambridge and City & Guides.
-Classes are taught by experienced lecturers, with up to date materials.
-The academic nature of the course will be of especial benefit to students wishing to do better their school exam.
The class starts at 2 of March. Day will be either Monday/Wednesday or Tuesday/Thursday, two choices. Choices for time are part time: 7:00pm till 9:00pm
and full time 9am till 12 pm. Duration is 3 months per module. Levels are classefied as elementary, intermediate and advance.
Anyway, I will try my best to score my best in their placement test, so, wish me luck!
Night time, I watched Peter Pan. The young star who acted as Wendy has very big teeth, haha, but beautiful! Frankly, her teeth is beautiful. Peter Pan looks a bit childish, but who cares? Haha, he supossed to be look childish, didn't he? Not bad.. Not bad..
But, how unfortunate, I dreamt bad dreams again. I dreamt about the SPM or exam things again... *sigh*
Today:
I felt so unhappy today! I was blamed!! I really really very angry for that! I have done my part, and then now they blamed me for not doing that?? Unfair!! So I lose my mood to observe or see anything around me.I did add maths all the morning, and I did not play with my cat. I was really really very angry. Rain..still rain. Today rain whole~day. Stopped only at evening time. I went to Samfah Stationary Shop today. I never know my parents knew such a big boss! I bought nothing there. But, I found out one thing--recently, I listened "HEART.BEAT" by LeeHom very often. It's a nice song. Heehee. Here, I would like to share the lyrics with you ^_^
王力宏 - 心跳
Wang Lee Hom - Xin Tiao
作词 : 王力宏 易家扬 作曲 : 王力宏
想跟我吵架 我没那么无聊
不懂得道歉 我没那么聪明
好想要回到我们的原点
you want to start a quarrel, but i'm not so free
don't know how to apologise, i'm not that smart
i'd like to return to our beginning
你又在哭泣 我给不了安慰
我又在摇头 有那么点后悔
爱情的发展已难以回头 却无法往前走
you're crying again, i can't provide comfort
i'm shaking my head again, just a little regretful
how love had developed there is no turning back, yet it can't go on either
但身不由己出现在胸口
两颗心能塞几个问号
爱让我们流多少眼泪
but i couldn't stop it from appearing on my chest
how many questions can be stuffed into two hearts
how many tears had love made us shed
你的眼神充满美丽 带走我的心跳
你的温柔如此靠近 带走我的心跳
逆转时光到一开始 能不能给一秒
等着哪一天你也想起
那悬在记忆中的美好
your eyes are filled with beauty, it takes my heartbeat away
your gentleness is so close, it takes my heartbeat away
turning back time to the beginning, could i have one second
waiting for the day when you too remember
the happiness existing in our memories
想跟我吵架 我没那么无聊
不懂得道歉 我没那么聪明
好想要回到我们的原点
you want to start a quarrel, but i'm not so free
don't know how to apologise, i'm not that smart
i'd like to return to our beginning
但身不由己出现在胸口
两颗心能塞几个问号
爱让我们流多少眼泪
but i couldn't stop it from appearing on my chest
how many questions can be stuffed into two hearts
how many tears had love made us shed
你的眼神充满美丽 带走我的心跳
你的温柔如此靠近 带走我的心跳
逆转时光到一开始 能不能给一秒
等着哪一天你也想起
那悬在记忆中的美好
your eyes are filled with beauty, it takes my heartbeat away
your gentleness is so close, it takes my heartbeat away
turning back time to the beginning, could i have one second
waiting for the day when you too remember
the happiness existing in our memories
你的眼神充满美丽 带走我的心跳
你的温柔如此靠近 带走我的心跳
逆转时光到一开始 能不能给一秒
等着哪一天你也想起
那悬在记忆中的美好
your eyes are filled with beauty, it takes my heartbeat away
your gentleness is so close, it takes my heartbeat away
turning back time to the beginning, could i have one second
waiting for the day when you too remember
the happiness existing in our memories
王力宏 - 心跳 Music Video
I forgot to wish Cynthia happy birthday, so
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST CYNTHIA~ (2/2/09)
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Monday, February 2, 2009
Back to SMK Green Road
Today I went back to SMK Green Road again to consult Miss Lily Liew for the scholarship stuff. I saw many juniors there. Wow, they are kind of tall. Apparently, today's kids got the enough nutrition to sustain their growth. Hahaha... Just kidding. I have heard that it is allowed to apply for JPA scholarship before you get your SPM result. Yo, listen here. Don't be mistaken. We are NOT allowed to apply JPA before SPM result is out, that's mean, we can't and NOT allowed to use our forecast result to apply for JPA. It's not opened yet. For the scholarship available now, you can check for SHELL scholarship from Google.com as reference. As general, the scholarship is available for the study of geoscience(I'm not too sure for this), engineer, IT, and business etc. It does not suit me, so I did not apply for it. I have decided to take english course instead of wasting my time to fool around lately. I must do it with all of my effort!!!!!!! and for the sake of JPA.
Last night, I get to know and befriend with a cute 92 China girl, whose name 龚斯怡. She is kind of cute and friendly. I'm very happy to know her, frankly. I never, well is seldom see such friendly China friend. TRUE!! And I meet her in MSN today. There she told me : 我今天还骄傲的和画室的朋友说我在MSN上交了一位马来西亚的可爱的女孩作朋友···
She mentioned me to her friends!!! Wow~~ I love her... Haha. Thanks a lot to her to mention me. I'm touched... Thank you. Take care friend!
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Last night, I get to know and befriend with a cute 92 China girl, whose name 龚斯怡. She is kind of cute and friendly. I'm very happy to know her, frankly. I never, well is seldom see such friendly China friend. TRUE!! And I meet her in MSN today. There she told me : 我今天还骄傲的和画室的朋友说我在MSN上交了一位马来西亚的可爱的女孩作朋友···
She mentioned me to her friends!!! Wow~~ I love her... Haha. Thanks a lot to her to mention me. I'm touched... Thank you. Take care friend!
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Labels:
JPA,
SHELL Scholarship,
SMK Green Road,
龚斯怡
Friday, January 2, 2009
Here I am, back to blogger again.
Years later, I'm no longer a secondary student who had just finished PMR and took the PMR result slip.
PMR..It reminds me of my result. It's a pity. Can I say it's my fate? I always got grade B for my BM.
Now I have taken my SPM, a very very important key for me to suceed in my life. My future undertakings depend on this great public exam -- SPM.
(P.S.: shall any foreigners are reading this text, PMR is the key for your academic [example: science / art ] choice in high school ; BM is Malay)
Frankly, I really hope the result will be out as soon as possible. I'm nearly died living in the anxiousness I have since and before I took SPM. It is killing me. I never had this feeling before. NEVER.. nor PMR. I only anxious a day before I took my result slip.
Gosh... I have no idea how to forget the 'anxiousness'. I should have faith in Lord. I knew that. I knew I can just leave it to the Lord, because I have done my best. Maybe it is kinda greedy in your point of view, but I do hope, no.. I must, Must, it is a MUST to get 11 A1 for my SPM (I only took 11 subjects). I can't have any of the negative thinking, I must force myself to have faith to get 11A1. And, because of this, I nearly insane. I think of this topic everyday, and this is the thing that stay in my mind for quite a looong time. I can't get rid of it. I'm so sad.
However, my Lord is a merciful God to us, He has granted me 10A's for my forecast result. I'm happy for that, really. I didn't get all A1 among the A's. Well..in fact, I got a A2 for my BM. (BM again =_= ) It's a very important subject in Malaysia, the place I live, but, in foreign countries, it is not that important anymore. Anyway, at least, I got all A1 for the important subjects I need. I got B3 for moral. Funny? Ooh.. I only got 80+ once in my life for moral. I don't really mind it.
I must get 11A1 for SPM. Wondering why?
If I really got 11A1, I can get scholarship, which reduces the burden my parents have. I don't come from a wealthy family. I have to seek for help from others. Furthermore.. It's Lord present to grant me 11A1, so I knew it's Lord's grace. So I can spread the good news to everyone. Not only that, I can get a certain amount of cash if I got A1 for specific subjects from the tuition centre I used to go. I can give the money to the teacher who has used his effort to teach me, and donate some of the money to my church. If I get 11A1, I can become a doctor to save others. With the knowledge from Lord, I can treat many people.
This is a great dream, isn't it?
I always dream of it. It's my dream.
Now, I'm doing my best to search for college, university & etc. I really hope I will have a good future.
As I said, I must have faith in Jesus the Lord, so.. I must がんばって (gambate) ね~ I must pray more to the Lord and have commitment between us.
God bless me and you.
Believe in God.
(-^_^-)
(P.S.: here are some credits for those korean lovers--to study in Korea link ;
http://www.openscholarship.info/korean-undergraduate-studies-in-korea.html
JPA scholarship guides ;
http://esila.jpa.gov.my/garispanduan.html
Management and Science University ;
http://www.msu.edu.my/
UCSI
http://www.ucsi.edu.my/
Today's video : No smoking song by SHINee ( it's funny to me ^0^ )
Years later, I'm no longer a secondary student who had just finished PMR and took the PMR result slip.
PMR..It reminds me of my result. It's a pity. Can I say it's my fate? I always got grade B for my BM.
Now I have taken my SPM, a very very important key for me to suceed in my life. My future undertakings depend on this great public exam -- SPM.
(P.S.: shall any foreigners are reading this text, PMR is the key for your academic [example: science / art ] choice in high school ; BM is Malay)
Frankly, I really hope the result will be out as soon as possible. I'm nearly died living in the anxiousness I have since and before I took SPM. It is killing me. I never had this feeling before. NEVER.. nor PMR. I only anxious a day before I took my result slip.
Gosh... I have no idea how to forget the 'anxiousness'. I should have faith in Lord. I knew that. I knew I can just leave it to the Lord, because I have done my best. Maybe it is kinda greedy in your point of view, but I do hope, no.. I must, Must, it is a MUST to get 11 A1 for my SPM (I only took 11 subjects). I can't have any of the negative thinking, I must force myself to have faith to get 11A1. And, because of this, I nearly insane. I think of this topic everyday, and this is the thing that stay in my mind for quite a looong time. I can't get rid of it. I'm so sad.
However, my Lord is a merciful God to us, He has granted me 10A's for my forecast result. I'm happy for that, really. I didn't get all A1 among the A's. Well..in fact, I got a A2 for my BM. (BM again =_= ) It's a very important subject in Malaysia, the place I live, but, in foreign countries, it is not that important anymore. Anyway, at least, I got all A1 for the important subjects I need. I got B3 for moral. Funny? Ooh.. I only got 80+ once in my life for moral. I don't really mind it.
I must get 11A1 for SPM. Wondering why?
If I really got 11A1, I can get scholarship, which reduces the burden my parents have. I don't come from a wealthy family. I have to seek for help from others. Furthermore.. It's Lord present to grant me 11A1, so I knew it's Lord's grace. So I can spread the good news to everyone. Not only that, I can get a certain amount of cash if I got A1 for specific subjects from the tuition centre I used to go. I can give the money to the teacher who has used his effort to teach me, and donate some of the money to my church. If I get 11A1, I can become a doctor to save others. With the knowledge from Lord, I can treat many people.
This is a great dream, isn't it?
I always dream of it. It's my dream.
Now, I'm doing my best to search for college, university & etc. I really hope I will have a good future.
As I said, I must have faith in Jesus the Lord, so.. I must がんばって (gambate) ね~ I must pray more to the Lord and have commitment between us.
God bless me and you.
Believe in God.
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(P.S.: here are some credits for those korean lovers--to study in Korea link ;
http://www.openscholarship.info/korean-undergraduate-studies-in-korea.html
JPA scholarship guides ;
http://esila.jpa.gov.my/garispanduan.html
Management and Science University ;
http://www.msu.edu.my/
UCSI
http://www.ucsi.edu.my/
Today's video : No smoking song by SHINee ( it's funny to me ^0^ )
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