Here I am, back to blogger again.
Years later, I'm no longer a secondary student who had just finished PMR and took the PMR result slip.
PMR..It reminds me of my result. It's a pity. Can I say it's my fate? I always got grade B for my BM.
Now I have taken my SPM, a very very important key for me to suceed in my life. My future undertakings depend on this great public exam -- SPM.
(P.S.: shall any foreigners are reading this text, PMR is the key for your academic [example: science / art ] choice in high school ; BM is Malay)
Frankly, I really hope the result will be out as soon as possible. I'm nearly died living in the anxiousness I have since and before I took SPM. It is killing me. I never had this feeling before. NEVER.. nor PMR. I only anxious a day before I took my result slip.
Gosh... I have no idea how to forget the 'anxiousness'. I should have faith in Lord. I knew that. I knew I can just leave it to the Lord, because I have done my best. Maybe it is kinda greedy in your point of view, but I do hope, no.. I must, Must, it is a MUST to get 11 A1 for my SPM (I only took 11 subjects). I can't have any of the negative thinking, I must force myself to have faith to get 11A1. And, because of this, I nearly insane. I think of this topic everyday, and this is the thing that stay in my mind for quite a looong time. I can't get rid of it. I'm so sad.
However, my Lord is a merciful God to us, He has granted me 10A's for my forecast result. I'm happy for that, really. I didn't get all A1 among the A's. Well..in fact, I got a A2 for my BM. (BM again =_= ) It's a very important subject in Malaysia, the place I live, but, in foreign countries, it is not that important anymore. Anyway, at least, I got all A1 for the important subjects I need. I got B3 for moral. Funny? Ooh.. I only got 80+ once in my life for moral. I don't really mind it.
I must get 11A1 for SPM. Wondering why?
If I really got 11A1, I can get scholarship, which reduces the burden my parents have. I don't come from a wealthy family. I have to seek for help from others. Furthermore.. It's Lord present to grant me 11A1, so I knew it's Lord's grace. So I can spread the good news to everyone. Not only that, I can get a certain amount of cash if I got A1 for specific subjects from the tuition centre I used to go. I can give the money to the teacher who has used his effort to teach me, and donate some of the money to my church. If I get 11A1, I can become a doctor to save others. With the knowledge from Lord, I can treat many people.
This is a great dream, isn't it?
I always dream of it. It's my dream.
Now, I'm doing my best to search for college, university & etc. I really hope I will have a good future.
As I said, I must have faith in Jesus the Lord, so.. I must がんばって (gambate) ね～ I must pray more to the Lord and have commitment between us.
God bless me and you.
Believe in God.
(-^_^-)
(P.S.: here are some credits for those korean lovers--to study in Korea link ;
http://www.openscholarship.info/korean-undergraduate-studies-in-korea.html
JPA scholarship guides ;
http://esila.jpa.gov.my/garispanduan.html
Management and Science University ;
http://www.msu.edu.my/
UCSI
http://www.ucsi.edu.my/

Today's video : No smoking song by SHINee ( it's funny to me ^0^ )